“They called us traitors. They beat us. They dragged us,” Gonell told CNN, in his first interview about the violence he experienced and witnessed on January 6. “And I could hear them, ‘We’re going to shoot you. We’re going to kill you. You’re choosing your paycheck over the country. You’re a disgrace. You’re a traitor.'”
“I remember thinking, all that stuff like, Byron, this is the day. All those times you’ve given thought on what you would do, you’re doing it. This is the day,” Evans said.
“This could be the day that I may have to use deadly force,” he said. “I had already heard of shots fired over the radio.”
Gonell and Evans are just two of the thousands of US Capitol Police officers, Metropolitan Police officers, National Guard troops and federal agents who battled violent rioters, protected lawmakers at the Capitol and rushed in to try to stop the deadly riot that unfolded at the heart of American democracy. The two officers publicly shared their experiences on January 6 for the first time with CNN, offering a window into how the law enforcement officers at the Capitol that day are still struggling to make sense of what happened, and grappling with guilt that more wasn’t done to stop it.
CNN spoke to Evans in an interview arranged by US Capitol Police after CNN had requested to speak to officers who had been on the ground January 6. Gonell spoke to CNN in his personal capacity and did not represent the department.
Especially after the mother and girlfriend of fallen Capitol Police Officer Brian Sicknick embarked on a last-minute lobbying campaign to try to convince GOP senators to support the commission, many officers were left deeply disappointed after the bill failed to pass.
‘Fighting inch by inch’
For Gonell, the wounds of January 6 are all too apparent.
His shooting hand was sliced open during the attack, making pulling the trigger of his gun a challenge. His shoulders still have contusions. He tried to walk off an injury to his right foot, but two weeks after the attack, he said, he finally sought medical help because he couldn’t walk anymore. As a result, Gonell needed bone fusion surgery so he could walk without the pain returning.
Gonell said the FBI has asked him to view video of the attack to help identify the rioters. It’s still difficult for him to watch footage of the events of January 6, he said, having to relive the battles that he fought while he was under assault.
Gonell immigrated to the US from the Dominican Republic when he was 12, eventually joining the Army Reserve and deploying to Iraq in 2003. He joined the Capitol Police force in 2008. As a leader of the department’s Civil Disturbance Unit, he was one of a fraction of officers in riot gear on January 6 and fought on the front lines against rioters he says attacked at the direction of then-President Donald Trump.
“When we were in the Lower West Terrace and throughout the whole ordeal I had people calling me immigrant, you’re not American, you are a traitor,” Gonell said. “I went overseas to protect our homeland from foreign threats, but yet here I am battling them in our own Capitol.”
He still has a vivid memory of the battle he faced: of the pepper spray that forced him and other officers from the front line, of the American flag poles, rocks and even guardrails pried from the inaugural stage that were used to attack officers, and of the struggle to keep the flood of insurrectionists from forcing their way into the door he was guarding.
“I bled, I sweat and I fought to prevent those people coming in through that entrance,” Gonell said. “We got pushed back all the way to magnetometer by the second door. And just to regain that space took us about another hour. We literally were fighting inch by inch. And to move one step, that was a 10-minute, 15-minute ordeal.”
In one particularly harrowing incident, Gonell said he pulled an officer who had fallen to the ground back away from the rioters. Then the mob grabbed onto him. For the next five minutes, Gonnell said, he was in a fight for his life as rioters grabbed onto anything they could, pulling on his riot shield, his shoulder straps and his uniform.
“It was very scary, because I thought I was going to lose my life,” Gonell said. “Then I started getting beat up with a flagpole, with a flag, the American flag that I swore to defend here and overseas. And I don’t know how I got this strength, but I hit that person so hard that they let me go. I started backpedaling.”
‘Y’all, they are in the building’
Evans has served as a Capitol Police officer for 16 years, working primarily in and around the Senate chamber.
He was on a scheduled break on January 6 when he first heard on the police radio the danger that officers were suddenly facing as rioters broke through the police line.
“You could just hear the tone in officers’ voices that were coming across the radio,” Evans said, explaining that he had raced back to the Senate and locked down the Capitol door at his post near the chamber.
Soon he was approached by Eugene Goodman, the Capitol Police officer who minutes later would heroically lead the insurrectionists up a flight of stairs and away from the Senate chamber doors.
“I went to my sergeant and told him I think we need to lock down the chamber,” Evans explained. “And as I’m having that conversation with him, another officer comes up, Eugene Goodman, and he tells us, ‘Y’all, they are in the building.’ “
Evans aided in the evacuation of the 100 senators and Pence. Once the senators were safely in lockdown, Evans said, televisions were wheeled into the room and they all got their first glimpse of what was unfolding.
“I just remember the anger I felt when I saw those images, busting windows, climbing the walls and stuff like that. It was an audible gasp in the room, seeing those images,” he said.
The images of insurrectionists on the Senate floor where he had been just minutes earlier were the most jarring.
“You just feel a personal connection to something that you protect every single day, and then to see the, on the floor, just doing whatever they wanted to do, doing things that no one is allowed to do, so, so cavalier — it definitely made you angry,” Evans said. “To see them up there, like it was some fun house, that will always stick in my mind.”
‘I just started crying’
Gonell said he had been fighting for roughly five hours before he was able to get a break and contact his family.
“I started texting my wife and I just said, ‘I’m OK. See you whenever,’ ” he said, explaining that he meant he had no idea when he would be back home.
Gonell finally returned home at 3 a.m., but he couldn’t hug his wife yet. “When I came in, she wanted to hug me, and I told her no, because I was covered in pepper spray and I didn’t want to get that on her. I was injured. My hands were bleeding still.”
After showering — which Gonell said was painful because the chemical spray had soaked through to his skin — he finally hugged his wife. He started crying, he said, out of relief but also because he was fighting feelings of guilt that he couldn’t do more.
“Everything that happened,” Gonell explained. “I didn’t think I would be able to see them. I went to my son’s bed and gave him a hug. He was asleep still. Gave him a kiss. And I just started crying, for like five, 10 minutes. I just cried. She kept telling me it was going to be OK. I’m like, ‘No, I’ve got to go back to work. I’ve got to go back to work.’ I felt guilty. I still do.”
Evans said that Capitol Police officers have gotten closer in the weeks after the attack as they’ve sought out some kind of return to normalcy at the Capitol. He said he had to stop watching videos showing what happened on January 6 because he would get too angry about it.
“That’s the feeling that I’ll never shake,” he said.
Both Evans and Gonell say they’ve struggled with the aftermath of the riots, with some Republicans opposing a commission to investigate what happened to them and downplaying the attack itself, even comparing the rioters to normal tourists.
“What kind of tour have you been on that you get beat up? What kind of tour? I’m still recovering from my hugs and kisses that day. My shoulder hurts, my mental, physical — it’s been straining,” Gonell said.
“I got hurt protecting them. And I would do it again if I have to. It’s my job,” he added. “It’s inconceivable that they don’t even want to find out how to prevent this in the future.”