SAS Who Dares Wins recruit Mark has been consistently strong throughout the process, but had a slight stumble during tonight’s episode.
Trying to work out why, recruit Mark was pulled into interrogation.
Ant Middleton joked: “Has anyone told you that you look just like me, but less good looking and less sculpted?”
Ant then commended Mark on how well he was doing and asked if he was finding it easy, to which Mark replied: “No, not at all.”
Probing further, Ant said: “We’ve all put our finger on something. There’s something that you’re masking.
“We’re hoping you can elaborate. You do realise the more you talk to us the more we can help you out.”
Mark then said: “Personally, it’s obviously a massive challenge but it’s a distraction from what’s gone on at home recently.”
Ant asked what the distraction was, with Mark replying: “I lost my wife six months ago, she committed suicide.
“She was perfect and beautiful in every way. It was like a fairytale.
“But she had these little things that ate away at her, anxieties.
“I don’t think I’ll get over it, I don’t think I ever will.”
He went on to say: “I 100 per cent appreciate it but I can’t see any cure for it or anything that’s going to make it easier.”
Jason Fox replied: “It’s still early days man.”
In a VT segment, Mark opened up further and said: “I was the first person to find her when I got in from work. She hung herself.
“I know it wasn’t her, with mental illness people don’t realise it’s out of their control I know it wasn’t her and her choice.
“I always think why didn’t she ring me that day. I could have talked her down.”
Later in the episode he was speaking to a fellow recruit and said: “We were together nearly 10 years. I just don’t understand why s**t happens.
“It’s like physical pain. My heart is aching all the time. I’ll never forget it.”
He was then offered a hug by his fellow recruit, as viewers took to social media at home, with one tweeting: “SAS Who Dares Wins always pulling at the heart strings.”
“I think SAS Who Dares Wins has just broke me! Poor guy, man. Unbelievable strength and credit to be pushing through that. Top man. #SASWhoDaresWin.”
A third said: “Feel for the big man on #SAS hope he goes the whole way. What a horrible thing to go through.”
“Bloody hell, what a lovely, brave, caring, strong, selfless man losing his wife to suicide. #SAS @antmiddleton not a week goes by where I don’t cry here!” wrote another.
A fifth added: “The stories of the people competing on SAS who dares wins are heartbreaking #whodareswins.”
SAS Who Dares Wins continues next Sunday on Channel 4 at 9pm.
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